23rd birthday

Its been 1 year since my last entry.. i had my birthday celebration today.. i really appreciate all the wishes and thanks from all my friends that i really enjoy alot this year.. partly because she was there..

i won't deny i still have feelings for her and my friends ask me to go for it.. but really i don't see it a point.. i not being wei da or wat but i really want to be around her.. i know she won't like me and i know i don't stand a chance at all.. i admit i still have feelings for her after all this years.. i tried to forget her and i want to be her good friend.. seeing her happy and doing well i'm sure i will feel good..

i just cried, i tried to control my feelings for her. when i think of her, the love for her came back.. i know i shdn't feel this way, i want to get rid of this feeling bcoz i want to be her good friend and watch her around.. even i'm not her good friend to her, being her friend i feel its a plus and i'm content to be one.. (:

i have to control my feelings, i learn alot these years and i'm mature now.. i know what i shd do and i believe we will be friends for a lifetime..

1st post

another new blog.. think that this shd be the 3rd blog i created.. hopefully i won't delete it away anymore.. don't ask me the reason why i delete away.. if u happen to read this post but i doubt there will be much people know about this blog or if u happen to know.. please don't ask me questions ok? just don't wanna answer it or i shd say sometimes.. its too personally that i blog it just to vent my anger or something.. just don't ask much or if u happen to know.. just keep quiet and pretend u actually dunno.. alright? sounds chim ah..

just passed my 22nd birthday 2 weeks ago.. really start to think alot and well.. guess that this year's birthday is not really quite a happy 1.. but still.. really happy that she make the effort to come down and celebrate for me.. she's already attached for so long yet i still love her so much.. friends around me been asking me to move on and i'm always stuck.. i really tried treating her like a good friend but i still can't deny that she's the one in my heart.. i know that i will end up hurting myself and wasting my time if i continue to stay like that..

i always kept myself busy in work but during lunch time.. i will lie down inside the meeting room and start thinking of her.. wat is she doing? is she coping well with her life? is she happy? how to forget her?

while i lost someone i love most.. at the same time u lost someone that loves u also.. all da best to u.. (: